Sunday, December 27, 2009, 12:03:00

I wanted to write all these in chinese, but failed. =.=
Memories in the photos would never lie. Secondary 1, I was as thin as one who suffered from aneroxia nervosa. Secondary 2, I left basketball court because SMKI is a place to study, no basketball future. Once in a while, i go back Sin Kwang to help train those juniors. Secondary 3, I left track and field, because of one person, now I regret. Another year of sec 3 in singapore, I joined chinese society. and, that means, nothing left. Looking back all these, I realised that I really shouldn't have chosen all these. I was offered to go sports school, even offered by the basketball coach from sin min. I wanted too. All mum said was, basketball cant bring you far enough. I regret. I would have a happier and more enjoyable secondary school life if i did not give up basketball. PMR was nothing, really nothing, SPM was not as important as my own happiness. I shouldn't have give up my happiness, at all. Now, I have nothing, because, I belong to the court. And, I will definitely, go back.`    


Saturday, December 26, 2009, 11:50:00



It will never be memory ONLY.♥
I wish someone can cure my boredom. I am practically rotting here. When you are busy, you wanna do stuff you like, but when you have all the time in the world, you realise that after doing stuff you like so many times, those stuff kind of loses its meaning. Very true. CS tmr.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009, 11:12:00

Haven't been writing a decent post for long. I have rested for more than a month. Things came and went. I harbor the wish to stay as I like, to live the way I love myself to, not distracted by any external things. I will never let myself get hurt by anything, not friendship, not love, not family either. When the thin air between you and her nearly suffocated me, I ran as hard as I could, never turn back to look at you, not even when I kenw I had fallen for you, for years. I told myself, baby, you can do it, it's just whether you want, or not. I knew how much my life has changed after that, but I knew, I won't let myself regret about my choice. Accompanying you has become part of my lacklustre life, because it caused me to go down and down, to the deepest valley of my life, and never able to rebound again. And then I realised, only my thoughts that can influence me, also, only my thoughts can bring me up again, to the peaks of my life. Only I myself , can bring me higher and higher, not anyone, of you. Let the tears wash away the sorrow you gave me, and I will be fine. ♥

Give whatever you are doing and whoever you are with the gift of your attention.

窗外的麻雀在电线杆上多嘴,你说这一句很有夏天的感觉,手中的铅笔在纸上来来回回,我用几行字形容你是我的谁,秋刀鱼的滋味猫跟你都想了解,初恋的香味就这样被我们寻回,那温暖的阳光像刚摘的鲜艳草莓,你说你舍不得吃掉这一种感觉,雨下整夜我的爱溢出就像雨水,院子落叶跟我的思念厚厚一叠,几句是非也无法将我的热情冷却,你出现在我诗的每一页,雨下整夜我的爱溢出就像雨水,窗台蝴蝶像诗里纷飞的美丽章节,我接着写把永远爱你写进诗的结尾,你是我唯一想要的了解
雨下整夜我的爱溢出就像雨水,院子落叶跟我的思念厚厚一叠,几句是非也无法将我的热情冷却,你出现在我诗的每一页,那饱满的稻穗幸福了这个季节,而你的脸颊像田里熟透的蕃茄,你突然对我说七里香的名字很美,我此刻却只想亲吻你倔强的嘴
雨下整夜我的爱溢出就像雨水,院子落叶跟我的思念厚厚一叠,几句是非也无法将我的热情冷却,你出现在我诗的每一页,整...夜....我的爱溢出就像雨水,窗台蝴蝶像诗里纷飞的美丽章节,我接着写把永远爱你写进诗的结尾,你是我唯一想要的了解

Monday, December 21, 2009, 10:31:00

Happy belated birthday to aikjin!
 #或许我要的只是你开心。 也许，你把我的新切成两半，我也无所谓，我只要你开心。♥

Saturday, December 19, 2009, 18:48:00

[Love relay, so tiring.]
"good night, and sleep tight." Looking at the digital watch, the numbers crept from 1am to 4am, and finally, dawn arrives upon the slightest light shone into my room. Holding on to the little promises isn't so hard, i guess? I can say hundreds of lies to make myself feel good, and make you believe me. Will you ever believe, that I really miss the day when we first talked to each other about our feelings towards each other in front of the field. The memories remained in my heart, and I will keep it till the day when you finally come back. I will help you whenever you need help, but I don't know, what will happen when you no longer need my help. It has really become a crucial part of my life. I have no other reason to talk to you when you don't need my help anymore. Like today, the feeling of emptiness hunted me, and I know, that you are sad, but I couldn't do anything. I just want you to be happy. All the best ! ♥

For you, this is the greatest joke, but it never is, at least, for me.

Friday, December 18, 2009, 13:12:00

As we get closer physically, our hearts move further away.
Went K-box yesterday with leong,kt,kmy,hc,ct and ls. 3 hours was actually quite long except for the kmy who really enjoyed shouting all the way from 3.30pm to 6.30pm, HAHA. Before that we went kopitiam to have a drink, after k-box we went KFC. My braces kill me like seriously, can't eat, just practically swallow most of the food. Kt keep chasing Ls, kept telling her how much he loves her and bla bla bla, Ls only kept hitting him with the undang book. lol. In the car, I was like watching a real drama show, wanted to sleep but failed, haiz. So finally reached Ls's home and after finishing my popcorn chicken and brushed my teeth, i just fell asleep. It was a tiring day.

Failure is not a single, cataclysmic event.
You don't fail overnight.
Instead, failure is a few errors in judgement, repeated every day.

Wednesday, December 16, 2009, 09:39:00



Kairou and me!!
Went Queensbay with LS they all. Around 15 ppl went. I bought a pair of shoes for my sis and a pilot 4+1 pen for myself (: I had been looking for this pen for very long ad, finally i got it! SAW KAIROU! haha!! She came from Selangor, and I am from Kedah. We met in Penang o.0, so we took photo in Royal Sporting House, haha, amazing right? I was quite happy yesterday, but I think my shopping partner wasn't very happy after the day (I don't think I know the reason?). Around 15 days left to the end of my holidays. Heard that results coming out on 12th Jan. Argh, couldn't really sleep yesterday. Can't imagine that I have completed my two years of O-levels in Singapore. I am pretty contented that I was given a chance to go to sg. EXCEPT THE FACT THAT KT LOOKS DOWN ON SINGAPOREAN AND KEEP CALLING ME AND LS SINGAPOREAN. Oh ya, yesterday was the first time i took public transport to Penang, and it was so tiring. I came back half-dead and went to CS to hav my dinner with yiwen and leesin. Choo shi fu was okay but I couldn't finish, dunno why. Din eat much in Queensbay either. Haiz. Before going home, we went to check out the prices of the luggage in the store. I think i will go to LS's house tonight to discuss about her to-buy-list and to-pack-list. Oh ya, before I forget, thanks to Chiam for accompanying us to Penang (: [&dental appointment later.]

#Discipline is the bridge between goals and accomplishment.

Monday, December 14, 2009, 18:45:00

If you have so much to say about my last post, I can remind you, I have a tagboard in my blog. Not that all the colourful ones are pretty, neither are the emo ones. Tall and thin doesn't mean pretty, look at the inner ones, mind you. Ask yourself, are you happy to be yourself? Change, if you are not. Character isn't something you were born with and can't change, like your fingerprints. It's something you weren't born with and must take responsibility for forming.

Saturday, December 12, 2009, 23:29:00

Don't tell me what friends are for. I hate friends that exploit your help and always take things for granted. Mummy said, treat ppl well so you won't regret for treating them badly. At this very moment, I regret for treating you so well that, I often find myself curling up at the corner, thinking of what you have done to me, and have my head buried between my legs, and torrential tears that had dammed up for few days pour out uncontrollably. That kind of unfathomable feelings enveloped me that I nearly suffocated in it. As for now, you make me wonder, has the two years, not only separated us, but also has transformed you into a wicked woman. Please, don't take things for granted, I am not born to help you.
If you don't design your own life plan, chances are you'll fall into someone else's plan. And guess what they have planned for you? NOT MUCH.
 I am feeling a little dizzy now.

Friday, December 04, 2009, 12:39:00

Progress always involves risks. You can't steal second base and keep your foot on first.